Blazing May

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in April

  • the Writer’s Oasis sparked my revelation that hiding doesn’t make me feel safe
  • [secret project]!
  • Past Me having done so much work and planning that’s relevant now
  • sitting with my fears
  • cooking about one new meal a week
  • making one page of Italian flashcards per week
  • planning outfits for the week on Sunday

Next time I might

  • re-establish my dance-meditate-chores habit
  • lower expectations
  • reduce my to-do list

Qualities I want for May
BOLD. Buoyancy. Wind in my hair from sailing forward! Reclaiming.

Things I’m working on

  • continuing [secret project]
  • gonna start my flower seeds sprouting
  • 10pm bed time

Looking forward to

  • sun and warmth
  • bold actions towards my potential

Asking and hoping for

  • opportunities

I’m ready for

  • moving on!
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April Sprouts

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in March

  • Monday Tarot
  • remembering March’s Quality was Courage
  • ruthless prioritizing and leaving things for later
  • preparing for Incoming Me
  • asking my partner to do stuff
  • eating mints when I feel a headache starting

Next time I might

  • getting ready for bed at 9.20 – it really works, and it’s also Alone Time

Qualities I want for April
Fresh Beginnings. Sprout! Reflection. Inside. Explore. Rest. Quiet.

Things I’m working on

  • [secret project]
  • another video project
  • re-learning Python
  • getting into bed at 10 pm
  • little steps towards not being terrified of conflict

Looking forward to

  • certainty
  • beginnings
  • moving towards my dreams

Asking and hoping for

  • [secret project] to be amazeballs! (It’s gonna be amazeballs)
  • my partner to move on from his obsession with outdated masculine accessories (wristwatches, pocketknives, etc.)
  • my cooking experiments to turn out yummy
  • a job interview at [place it took a lot of courage to apply to]

I’m ready for

  • being myself
  • exploration
  • progress
  • being a Hermit : )

Easy-Breezy March

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in February

  • Monday Tarot! I looooove picking a card every week instead of every month
  • my Google Keep dashboard – it has helped me get a magnitude of things done! (the sun doodle is from one of my fave webcomics, Lackadaisy Cats)

  • 2-3 to-dos at a time
  • one project at a time
  • writing or typing to-dos immediately when I think of them to free my brain up
  • getting up at 5.45 am
  • small steps
  • recognizing it takes me weeks to complete something – just accept it
  • putting my Monthly Tarot card as the background on my phone so I see it every day
  • making lots of food on the weekend and freezing it for dinners during the week
  • picking out the next week’s outfits on Sunday (frees up a LOT of time)
  • taking care of junk mail immediately
  • not giving a shit
  • Writer’s Oasis Saturday mornings
  • saying to myself emphatically: “NO, this can wait for tomorrow”

Next time I might

  • getting into bed at 10 pm is such a challenge, but I’ll try getting ready at 9.15

Qualities I want for March
Fun. Fancy Free. Explore. Budding. Ease. Rest. Courage. Shields Up.

Things I’m working on

  • adding items to my Amazon Seller store!! (It was a trial to get it set up, but I’ve already had one sale!)
  • finishing my video project

Looking forward to

  • fun
  • a haircut
  • my second Amazon sale!

Asking and hoping for

  • warmer weather
  • continuing from February: tenacity, nipping it in the bud, and not giving a shit

I’m ready for

  • making for the sake of making
  • fun exploration before [secret project] in April

Being Present for February

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in January

  • just three to-dos at a time (and having to prioritize)
  • Monday Tarot (a theme for each week)
  • writing
  • ablutions at 9.40 and in bed at 10! (most days)
  • getting up at 5.45 on weekdays = I’m less rushed and get more Me Time

Next time I might

Qualities I want
Presence. Appreciation. Gratitude. Excitement. Tenacity. Remembering.

Things I’m working on

Looking forward to

  • making a video = super fun
  • voice acting for my video, say whaaaaat

Asking and hoping for

  • tenacity to stick with my video project!

I’m ready for

  • feeling like I’m on my way to somewhere good

My Tarot Message for February

Rider Waite Smith deck

February’s card from my Year Spread is the IV of Cups. This card is about holding oneself back and being closed off from help, joy, and magic. It’s about forgetting to be present, which is why I chose the word Presence as my theme for this month. I very often feel like I don’t have enough time and money, and I forget all the support I do have. I also get dissatisfied and bored, forgetting that deeper exploration will mean greater excitement!

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory, Tarot Teachings, and Labyrinthos Academy.

Majestic January

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in December

  • taking off Mercury in retrograde (just doing fun stuff once I got home from work)
  • journaling
  • chores after work
  • time containers
  • starting out with just 15 minutes
  • focusing on one project at a time
  • getting ready for bed at 9
  • watching the snow fall
  • hawthorn infusion in my canteen during the day instead of staying up too late to drink it!

Next time I might

  • interrupt an internet dopamine binge with hugging my Pusheen stuffie! She’s a little stuffie so I squish her to my face ^_^
  • knit at night

Qualities I want for January
Majesty. Strength. Welcoming. Acceptance.

Things I’m working on

Looking forward to

  • more glitter snow!
  • my partner feeling better
  • a raise

Asking and hoping for

  • a good raise
  • a chance to go into video work at my job
  • new students

I’m ready for

  • Hope
  • feeling more and more like earning enough money and enjoying my time here is not only deserved, but natural, like it’s my birthright.

My Tarot Message for January

In my Year Spread, January’s card is Strength. Strength is often described as depicting our elevated human nature conquering our base animal instincts, but I believe it is really about accepting and welcoming the “vampire voices” or monsters – the parts of ourselves that keep us small rather than let us change and grow into unfamiliar territory. The Strength card never shows the woman beating the lion into submission, after all – she gently touches it, instead.

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory, Tarot Teachings, and Labyrinthos Academy.

Radical rest in December

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in November

  • napping a lot
  • crying a lot
  • hugs
  • making a compass
  • asking for help
  • 15 minutes of some tasks
  • forcing Neat Bee (Nip It In The Bud)
  • cultivating my Inner Observer
  • focusing on one thing at a time – helped immensely
  • going ahead even though I’m not 100% perfect
  • I held a Rally!
  • welcoming fear
  • remembering my messages from the Tarot

Next time I might

  • focus on one thing at a time – always
  • ask the Tarot sooner – always!
  • listen
  • write stuff down to get it out of my head

Qualities I want for December
Rest. Light. Focus. Solid Ground. Sovereign As Hell. Always Safe.

Superpower I want
Tenacious Monk.

Things I’m working on

  • building up my savings, possibly by selling things I don’t want
  • still welcoming help
  • resting like it’s my job

Looking forward to

  • maybe a new job (but I’m just proud of myself for applying, especially because they’re long shots)
  • my mom feeling better

Asking and hoping for

  • the peace I feel now to extend the whole month long
  • help

I’m ready for

  • new
  • settling into Always Safe

Tarot Message
I got two – the Emperor popped out, but I decided to draw another one, which was the Devil. They are just what I need right now.

The Emperor

  • authority
  • worldly success
  • stablity
  • structure
  • focus
  • set boundaries
  • grounding
  • follow your goals methodically

The Devil

  • potential in our most hidden parts of self
  • remove blockages by exposing them
  • “we’re blind to our own beauty”
  • illusion
  • enslavement
  • feeling trapped, empty, and unfulfilled
  • duality

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory, Tarot Teachings, and Labyrinthos Academy.

Meaning in November

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

Havi’s Quality for November is Meaning but I also had signs pointing me to meaning for this month, one coming from an unexpected and super ironic source.

What worked in October

  • rest, naps, and more naps
  • not thinking about my business… much
  • not listening to podcasts
  • Body First
  • being present
  • remembering legitimacy
  • wishing
  • imagining my life if X, Y, and Z weren’t factors
  • Tarot readings
  • relaxation exercises
  • mind-mapping
  • extreme self-care

Next time I might

  • look at my Focus Page every day
  • not staying up till midnight doing [stressful activity]

Qualities for November
Meaning. Soft. Center. Open.

Things I’m working on

  • uncovering the meaning of my biz
  • income stuff
  • housework

Looking forward to

  • holidays off
  • maybe getting some more income
  • Havi is posting more, so more Havi posts!

Asking and hoping for

  • courage
  • seeing opportunity
  • following opportunity

I’m ready for

  • meaning
  • a lifestyle that supports my works

Tarot Message
The Tower
– whaaaat, I never get the Tower. But I am totally fine with this card. I’m exited about the opportunity that emerges from losing what doesn’t serve me.

  • abrupt change
  • jolt us back to life
  • blessing in disguise
  • build new structures that support you
  • live authentically
  • revelation

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory, Tarot Teachings, and Labyrinthos Academy.

Resting in October

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in September

  • naps
  • not deciding
  • dry brushing
  • writing down what I did during the day
  • lunches and dinners chart
  • Body First
  • choosing a season length of time (three months) for a Big Project
  • my analog dashboard of lists and to-dos
  • asking the Tarot what to do
  • saying no

Next time I might

  • get back to my after-work schedule, because it works
  • not question my desire
  • recognize a Should sooner
  • let things go sooner and sooner!

Qualities I want for October
Rest. Lightness. Security. Strength. REGAL.

Things I’m working on

  • not deciding – listening for the decision I’ve already made
  • being cunning and sneaky
  • cleaning house – literally

Looking forward to

  • more relaxation, more rest

Asking and hoping for

  • for the decision I’ve already made to come through
  • courage to be sovereign

I’m ready for

  • freedom from Shoulds!

My Tarot Message
The Queen of Swords (talk about REGAL):

  • courage in adversity
  • determination, willpower
  • judging fairly
  • patience
  • be more assertive
  • wisdom
  • proud
  • focused
  • structured
  • vigilance
  • trust your instincts, listen to your intuition
  • wise woman
  • compassion
  • keep a strong objective
  • communicate clearly and frankly

My Tarot resources are The Tarot DirectoryTarot Teachings, and Labyrinthos Academy.

Welcome, September

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in August

  • 15 minutes
  • 30-30 rule (fun-housework)
  • writing down my accomplishments
  • Could Do/Must Do List, and moved it to a small notebook
  • one cup hawthorn infusion in the evening
  • planning, but flexible planning (having two to four options)
  • dinners and lunch chart!
  • saying no
  • blogging before work every day
  • deciding to reduce my art blogging
  • shrugging off all the weird things as “Whatevs, Mercury is in Retrograde”
  • sitting with my fears

Next time I might

  • reduce more and reduce sooner
  • don’t stop doing Neat Bee (Nip It In The Bud)! Everything piles up so fast when I stop Neat Bee-ing.

Qualities I want for September
Inside. Steady She Goes. Focus.

Things I’m working on

  • finishing up projects so I can start really focusing on my webcomic, aka BAMFtW
  • preparing for an unknown move date

Looking forward to

  • finishing things
  • my partner wearing snuggly sweaters : )

Asking and hoping for

  • Frankly, I need some money, because supporting myself and my partner for eight months drained my savings. I want my Redbubble store to see some sales and a raise and/or bonus at work. Other positive ways to receive money are also welcome.

I’m ready for

  • preparing and nourishing myself to make my webcomic!

Tarot Message
Even as my savings have dwindled, the cards have been reassuring me in July, August, and now September that I will be okay in the financial department. And I will, now that my partner has a job – we just have a transition period when funds are low, but we’ll make it through.

This month’s Tarot theme is The Emperor, who reminds me that I will be okay! He also represents:

  • authority
  • solidity and structure
  • manifesting creative ideas
  • realizing goals
  • focus
  • boundaries
  • strategy
  • scrutiny
  • grounding
  • inner strength
  • motivation
  • leading by example

Month of Grace
Havi says September’s Quality is Grace, which I’m looking forward to understanding, and the superpower is I Have What I Need. Yes yes, thank you!

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory and Tarot Teachings.

Red August

I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in July

  • getting up at 6am every day
  • time management awesomeness:
    • doing 15 minutes of a task every day
    • 40 minutes fun, then 20 minutes housework
    • getting ready for bed earlier
  • writing down my accomplishments during the day
  • tapping (Emotional Freedom Technique)
  • dancing almost every day
  • Could Do/Must Do list
  • chores close to when I arrive home
  • 1 cup hawthorn infusion every night
  • listening to Listen to Wikipedia all day

Next time I might

  • get ready for bed at 9 consistently
  • write every thought down so I don’t forget it!
  • plan my lunches

Qualities I want
Bold. Red. Abundance. Song. My Crown Crushes Those Who Dare To Steal It.

Things I’m working on

  • filling my Redbubble store with photos
  • tweeting more
  • reducing meat and chocolate in our diet to save money
  • keeping my plants healthy
  • new dance playlists

Looking forward to

  • art fairs
  • having a tiny bit more money

Asking and hoping for

  • my partner to get a job he loves and also pays really well
  • people to buy stuff with my art on it!

I’m ready for
Continuing awesome.

Tarot Message
Last month I got the X of Pentacles, and this month I got the IX of Pentacles! It can mean:

  • material success, well-being, contentment
  • embrace material gifts
  • pleasure in what you’ve achieved
  • solid sense of identity from the inside
  • inexhaustible focus
  • growth
  • nobility
  • assurance
  • slow & steady progress

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory and Tarot Teachings.

Welcome, July

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I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in June

  • DO THE FUN
  • recognizing my patterns
  • waking up at 6am every day of the week
  • writing down my accomplishments
  • dancing
  • tapping (EFT) on visibility and enforcing barriers
  • following my resistance to its source
  • discovery writing
  • 15 minutes
  • 40-20 rule on the weekends
  • Neat Bee (nip it in the bud), especially with dishes and junk mail
  • having a Must Do/Could Do list
  • doing simple Feldenkrais exercises from Anat Baniel
  • massaging my toes
  • eating half a muffin with yogurt for breakfast
  • prioritizing sleep

Next time I might

  • adapt the 40-20 rule to weekdays
  • get ready for bed at 9

Qualities I want
Progress. Fun. Creativity. Bold. Courage. Care. Flow. Receive.

Things I’m working on

  • keeping up sustainable habits and not abandoning them, because I know they work!
  • prioritizing art and my blogs
  • remembering the fun

Looking forward to

  • changes at work – it will be interesting
  • my partner may have a job soon
  • my plants getting better now that I’ve been giving them epsom salts for their magnesium deficiency

Asking and hoping for

  • courage
  • immediate gut-knowing

I’m ready for

  • consistency
  • more fun

My Tarot Message is the X of Pentacles. This card is for celebrating! Its meanings include:

  • security
  • abundance
  • lasting happiness
  • comfortable with who we are
  • desire to create a legacy
  • actively living
  • the qualities leading up to celebration: a strong foundation, intense focus, commitment, empathy, being present, foresight, leading by power-with

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory and Tarot Teachings.

It’s June!

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I write a Monthly Passage, which I learned from Havi’s blog at The Fluent Self, to let go of last month and enter the new month with intention.

What worked in May – really well!

  • Do The Fun
  • 40 minutes fun, 20 minutes housework
  • the Oasis
  • getting a little bit back to Neat Bee
  • separating my to-do list into “Must Do” and “Could Do”
  • writing down my accomplishments for the day
  • making it up as I go
  • acting from the energy of anger
  • tapping (EFT)
  • acting based on actual conditions
  • expressing dissatisfaction
  • following rabbit holes
  • time alone
  • discovery writing
  • chores after work instead of before bed

Next time I might

  • do something useful for abnegation time at night, like knit
  • always have a choreography project going

Qualities I want for June
Physicality. Boundaries. Neat Bee-ness. Confidence. Pleasure. Joy. Enoughness.

Things I’m working on

  • celebrating and being a celebration
  • discovery writing about stories I’ve had in me for over a decade
  • maintaining consistency with my new awesome habits

Looking forward to

  • discovering my stories
  • my plant darlings growing

Asking & hoping for

  • sun for my plants
  • immediate gut-knowing

I’m ready for

  • continuing sustainability
  • more fun
  • discoveries

Tarot Message
I drew the IV of Pentacles. I’ve been very concerned with material things like money (the lack thereof). This card warns against:

  • isolating yourself
  • holding yourself back
  • being inflexible
  • stagnation from not risking anything
  • miserliness
  • complacency

My Tarot resources are The Tarot Directory and Tarot Teachings.